The Bible encourages us and tells us to have faith in God. And most of the time as believers we do. As we continue to live for God and see Him come through for us and others our faith grows. But happens with your faith gets shaken? What then?
I’ve been there before. Walking strong in the Lord. Reading The Word, quoting the word, walking and breathing Jesus. But then it happened. My friend who lived next door to me was married for about nine years. They had a son who at the time I believe was about eight years old. My friend called me to tell me an ambulance had rushed his wife to the hospital, that her blood sugar level had fallen low and she went into a coma. (She was diabetic). I was in shock. I prayed with my friend who was a believer also as was his wife that God is with her and is healing her. After about a week or so went by, my friend told me his wife wasn’t getting any better and was still in a coma in the hospital and that the Doctors felt the end was near. I offered to meet him at the hospital and pray for her in person. As I saw her laying there still unaware of either one of us in the room, I prayed for God’s healing. I could feel the presence of God there in that room as I prayed and ended in prayer. I let my friend know that I believed that she would be healed. A couple of days later, I received the bad news, that his wife had passed away. I was in utter shock! I could not believe it. I mean I felt God in that room and I was so sure He was going to heal her. LORD!? I went to the funeral. My friend was in the first row surrounded by his family and church brothers and sisters. He broke down sobbing. Tears streamed from my eyes too. I still couldn’t believe she was dead and was secretly hoping to God that a resurrection would happen right then and there. It didn’t. They buried her that day. Into the ground she went, and so did my faith. I felt that God had let me and my friend and my friend’s young son down. How could He allow this to happen? Why didn’t He answer my prayers? Why did I feel His presence but He didn’t heal her? WHY? I wrestled with these questions for a good year. I barely prayed during that time, and I certainly didn’t pray for anyone that was sick. I felt betrayed. It was hard on my faith. I didn’t want to stop believing in God. I knew deep in my heart He was real and that I was saved and forgiven of my sins according to His word and I didn’t want to ruin what we had in our relationship. So I continued to search His word and ask for His guidance in regaining my faith. I wish I could say to you it was easy and quick, but it was anything but easy or quick. A year is a long time to live with very little faith feeling the way I did towards God. After some time though I took solace in knowing that God is God and His ways are not our ways. Isaiah 55:8-9. Also, I knew that my friend’s wife had a great deal of faith in God. I knew by His word that she was with Him. I went over the word of God about this: “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:” Hebrews 9:27. That word “appointed” means we each have an appointment set. I knew she was with God because she had been born again. “Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.” John 3:3. Wow, she was actually with Jesus face to face! “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.” 1 Corinthians 13:12. This is really good news to me. Knowing she is face to face with Jesus, and also this tells me I’ll know clearly what happened during this time when I am also face to face with Him. We may not understand everything about God. Okay, when we really think about it, we don’t know much about Him except for what The Bible tells us. But one day we will. It will be glorious. So today many decades later, I still believe in God and I still pray for people, even people that need healing. What I do now is, I leave the rest for God. After all, I’m not the one healing them, it’s God who heals or doesn’t for His reasons, not mine. I am His instruement when ever and how ever He chooses.
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